OII! SHUT UP UP THERE!!!

Sigh... It just isn't fair is it? I know that nothing in this world is fair but THIS is just too much: why is it that only guys can shut out their brains? They can actually think, about nothing! But girls, we are always thinking and I'm getting sick of it! So when you're talking to a guy on the phone or something, and he just stops talking, and you asks what is he thinking about and he says nothing, it really is nothing! Don't asks him stupid questions like what are you trying to hide from me or are you cheating on me or am I not good enough for you in bed? LEAVE THE POOR GUY ALONE! Girls are too clingy! Stop it! No wonder no one wants to be in a relationship these days, it's because of you stupid girls! Oooh hunny, when will i see you next? Ummm we hung out today. Babe, I didn't get a call from you today, are you seeing someone else? Fuck off, I was at work all day, how can I possibly find time to call you?

Ok that wasn't really what I wanted to blog about but I just keep going off track. Yes, I did fail at writing essays when I was in school.

So, today was my day off and last night I made a list of things to do today and for once, I actually did them! Won't go into details of that because its boring... But I started thinking about everything. Ex boyfriends, parties, all the stupid shit I did, my singapore holiday, uni, moving out of home, and all my new years resolutions. Ok the list just goes on and it really got too much but I just couldn't shut any of those out! I mean, I'm 17, can't I just be a normal teenage girl who wants an office job just to wear nice professional clothes, not the actual job for experience? Can't I just be a normal 17 year old who still do stupid things like get smashed at a party and sleep on the sidewalk? Urgh. I sometimes think that I'm growing up way too fast. Everyone tells me that: You're only 17, you have your whole life to be mature so who cares if you do stupid things now? Great now I'm starting to think again. OK THATS IT. I'm going now and do something that won't make me think too much.

Yes, you might have wasted 5 minutes of your life reading my pointless post but I've wasted my whole life thinking! I do let things work out for themselves sometimes but I just wish I could let that happen more. =(

P.s. Don't forget to always SMILE! =D

Does pain ever feel good?

Dear Diary,

Haven't spoken to you in a while. Yeah, sorry about that but aren't you glad to see me again? =) And I know that it's only 2 in the afternoon but I just have to tell you about my day.

Today, is a very good day but it's not just because that I've got the day off, it's also because I now have SPIDERBITES.

So this morning I woke up quite a few times because I stupidly left my home phone in my room last night without turning it off, and well everyone loves calling my mum in the morning. Ooh yeah I tried going back to sleep but I'm one of those people who can't go back to sleep after I wake up in the morning. Urgh. But I did get my sleep last night as, surprisingly, I didn't have any nightmares. I woke up and got ready in 10 minutes. Yes I'm a girl but I'm not going anywhere special so why should I spend 2 hours in front of the mirror? What a waste of time. Anyways, I keep going off track, hmm. What was I up to...? Oooh right, I had to wait like an hour for my bus because apparently today is a public holiday and NOOOOO no one told me! But that was worth it because as soon I got to Carousel, I went straight to Scorpion Body Piercing Studio. It was my first time getting a peircing done somewhere else instead of going to Exotic soo I was a little scared. Especially after the incident with my belly bar at Off Ya Tree. But it all turned out ok. I mean, Exotic still has better service and a better piercer but it's Monday and it's half price piercings at Scorpion sooooo yeah. A piercing for $35! YAY!!! =D

Today, I realised how much I missed getting piercings and why I like spending $70 to get stabbed by a metal bar. WOW. The feeling was great. Sure, it hurt when they put the piercing through and screwed it on but it felt nice. I felt... relaxed. Hopefully I get the same feeling when I get my tattoos in Singapore with my sister. CAN'T WAIT!

Hmmm I think that was all I wanted to tell you, I really can't be bothered typing anymore anyways. It's nice talking to you again, I'll see you soon.

Lots and lots of smiles from Nicole.

P.s. Don't forget to always SMILE! =)

Oooh how exciting! =D

HELLO WORLD! How are you all doing? Hmm I'm very new to this sooo don't laugh ok? Promise me... Anyways, don't run away from me just because of my blog title. I'm not really a psychopathic serial killer... Well not yet anyways. I only have dreams about killing people. almost every night now but I'm not too worried I guess because they'll all go away like the previous times. They do scare me a lot and I can't sleep properly but they're even worse if I don't talk to my friend Sam at night. Weird isnt it? But I swear, my dreams are going to be on the big screen someday because they're so bloody and horrifying. =) Either that, or I'm really going to become a psychopathic killer. So, don't piss me off! Haha but don't worry, I almost never get mad at people because having to remember that you're mad at that person and the reason you're mad and staying mad at that person is a fucking pain in the ass.

I don't know what my first blog is going to be... So I've just decided to tell you all about me. Damn it I hate doing that because I never know what to start with. Well my name is Nicole - with the lack of a 'H'! Thats right, even my boss who I've been working for two years spell my name wrong. =( It just shows how much I mean to them. Ummmmm what else...? Umm I'm in love with Heavy Metal music, skulls, grim reapers, piercings, tattoos, spiders, snakes, chains, Horror and Gore movies and all that stuff. Dispite all that, I like my Punny Bear (a Pooh Bear toy), books, flowers, organising stuff and I'm a little bit of a clean freak. And... the other side of me would be the little party animal inside me who makes me crave Playboy stuff, alcohol, cigarette, weed (well not really anymore) and SEX. Hmm i think that pretty much sums the stuff i like up. So now the things I hate: ORANGE! Fuck, if you have an orange shirt or anything orange and you dare wear that when I'm with you, I swear to aliens (because I don't believe in god) I WILL RIP YOUR BRAINS OUT!!! And... KIDS. I FUCKING HATE KIDS, I WISH I COULD KILL THEM ALL! Anyways... Moving on... Yup, I'm a freak but I'm me. =)

Ok, I can't really be fucked typing anymore. Soo I'll see you guys later? =)

P.s. Don't forget to always SMILE! =)

P.p.s. I hope I didn't make any little kids out there cry... If i did, well then FUCK OFF AND STOP TRYING TO ACT SOO COOL! Urgh kids these days...