OII! SHUT UP UP THERE!!!

Sigh... It just isn't fair is it? I know that nothing in this world is fair but THIS is just too much: why is it that only guys can shut out their brains? They can actually think, about nothing! But girls, we are always thinking and I'm getting sick of it! So when you're talking to a guy on the phone or something, and he just stops talking, and you asks what is he thinking about and he says nothing, it really is nothing! Don't asks him stupid questions like what are you trying to hide from me or are you cheating on me or am I not good enough for you in bed? LEAVE THE POOR GUY ALONE! Girls are too clingy! Stop it! No wonder no one wants to be in a relationship these days, it's because of you stupid girls! Oooh hunny, when will i see you next? Ummm we hung out today. Babe, I didn't get a call from you today, are you seeing someone else? Fuck off, I was at work all day, how can I possibly find time to call you?

Ok that wasn't really what I wanted to blog about but I just keep going off track. Yes, I did fail at writing essays when I was in school.

So, today was my day off and last night I made a list of things to do today and for once, I actually did them! Won't go into details of that because its boring... But I started thinking about everything. Ex boyfriends, parties, all the stupid shit I did, my singapore holiday, uni, moving out of home, and all my new years resolutions. Ok the list just goes on and it really got too much but I just couldn't shut any of those out! I mean, I'm 17, can't I just be a normal teenage girl who wants an office job just to wear nice professional clothes, not the actual job for experience? Can't I just be a normal 17 year old who still do stupid things like get smashed at a party and sleep on the sidewalk? Urgh. I sometimes think that I'm growing up way too fast. Everyone tells me that: You're only 17, you have your whole life to be mature so who cares if you do stupid things now? Great now I'm starting to think again. OK THATS IT. I'm going now and do something that won't make me think too much.

Yes, you might have wasted 5 minutes of your life reading my pointless post but I've wasted my whole life thinking! I do let things work out for themselves sometimes but I just wish I could let that happen more. =(

P.s. Don't forget to always SMILE! =D